MY life as I know it, seems to be drawing towards a dark,narrow precipice, with no hope of turning back.......... 11th was a confusing year. On the one hand I feel I have accomplished almost everything I set out to achieve in the year gone by. Yet, the nagging feeling that I have failed to live up to my academic ambitions remains! At the beginning of the year, I had made a solemn promise to myself, to shed the embarassment and the concern, and try my hand at everything physically possible! Though I have upheld that promise, I have allowed it to seriously interfere with my academic progress! Through the year, I became absolutely DEPENDENT on inter-schools to draw me away from the boredom of classes. The freedom to bunk innumerable days with the excuse of representing the school was enticing, and I grabbed it with both hands. In the process, I now find myself in a state of quandary. Throughout the year, I am certain that it was these very co-curricular activities that kept me interested in coming to school! They guaranteed me the quota of fun which I needed in my student life that year.
Now, alas, 12th is fast approaching. Even if school may start only in May, tuitions will begin long before (April 2nd to be exact). I'm faced with the grim prospect of an entire year devoid of ANY co-curricular events. This year will basically DECIDE my future, and thus, to slack off academically as I did the previous year is a big NO-NO! It will be a year of unmatched boredom, toil, hard work and at times, mind-numbing mugging of meaningless text. I know that I will have to bear it all, just as lakhs of other students writing the BOARDS, AIEEE, KERALA ENTRANCE and IIT-JEE.........but preparing myself mentally for such a great challenge, is proving to be difficult! Just picturing the DAILY extra classes of Lekha Ma'am and Bindhu Ma'am makes me nauseous!
But i guess I can't let these things affect me right now! I've got about 10 days of freedom left before my journey through the darkness begins! Time to stack up movies, play football and download music i guess!!
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